That’s How I Roll…
I very nearly gave this up. Blogging, that is.
I’d had a particularly bad night the other night and I was in the mood to destroy something. It’s what I do. I destroy my own things. Why would I do this? I suppose it’s a lot of things. Part of it is that I’m tired of pretending that everything is hunky dory all the time. That I’m dealing well with this life I lead. I didn’t want to have to put a fake-ass happy face on and write posts about Katy Perry or dick jokes.
Since that time, I’ve reconsidered. Posts may be infrequent here for a bit. Or they just may be dark.
I’m not sure how it’s going to go. Just between you and me, I considered taking on a pseudonym and creating a blog out there somewhere to just tell it like I feel it, but with my luck, someone would stumble onto it and figure out it’s me. Maybe I still will…
January 22nd, 2012 at 9:37 pm
Frak putting on a happy face. The people who read your blog know – at least on paper – what your life is like. I’d much rather you write your truth, however dark, as much as you need or feel comfortable sharing than anything else.
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Patrick D. Reply:
January 23rd, 2012 at 11:32 pm
Noted. Thanks.
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January 22nd, 2012 at 9:41 pm
Be dark, let it all out if you want. Who cares what anybody thinks? If it helps you cope with all the crap you have to deal with then do what you’ve got to do. Whatever you do please don’t stop blogging because I think it’s one of the places where you can go to get away from all the shit you have to deal with.
PS- I destroy things, too, albeit more physically. Throwing things and watching them shatter normally makes me feel a lot better at least for a couple minutes.
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Patrick D. Reply:
January 23rd, 2012 at 11:33 pm
My temper has cost me way too many things over the years. I break regular stuff too. I’ve gotten better with that as I’ve aged, but sadly, not completely gone.
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January 23rd, 2012 at 2:29 pm
I wish things were different for your family. Don’t fake it, don’t keep it in… Maybe I’ll let you crush HH tomorrow.
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January 27th, 2012 at 8:57 pm
I can identify with how you feel and in all honesty, depression led to the demise of my blog. I’m trying to get back into it, but it’s difficult.
I’d rather you be honest about how you feel than put on a fake smile, but I know how hard it is to put even a pinch of honesty online when you’re feeling overwhelmed with life. If you’re ever interested in doing a ghost-post on my blog, I’m down. Maybe then you can feel comfortable writing what’s really on your mind?
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