I’m Supposed To Be A Writer…
My birthday is coming up soon. I’m not really excited about that mostly because I’m just one short year away from being an old dude. And I don’t want to be an old dude. I still love new music and tech gadgets and I fought so hard to never live in the past. Friends still talk about how great the 80s music was. No it wasn’t. It’s the nostalgia you have for it. Sorry. There was good music, but believe me, it was not Rick Astley or Jody Watley.
Getting back to me, I realize now that I made a lot of mistakes along the way. I always hoped I’d be famous or rich. Not Ashton Kutcher famous, but known. And if not known, at least wealthy. I thought I was supposed to be Bill Gates. But things didn’t work out that way. I realize know that I will never be famous and the most known I will ever be is the 40+ readers of this blog. And I’ve already come to grips with that.
Maybe the greatness is in my kids. Maybe I’ll be the example that pushes them to try a little harder than I did. Maybe, in that way, all this will have been worth it. And if so, I’m fine with that. The career as an office manager, the failed attempt at getting a degree and the barely making ends meet will have paid off if they can do something they love and make a good living from it.
I was set to end the post on that last sentence, but then I looked at the post title and realized I hadn’t talked at all about the writing. I think I’m supposed to be a writer. I think it’s supposed to be my calling. I have these stories in my head. I’ll make them up while going to sleep or while driving to work or just daydreaming. Elaborate stories with plot elements and character backgrounds, no less. And these stories talk to me. Like they need to get out. But I have such a hard time starting.
I’ve got to fix that…and I don’t know how.
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October 5th, 2008 at 10:01 am
Ok, “Patrikko” here’s the deal…if you look at the big “pitcher” (HE HE), you’re doing pretty well. You have a beautiful wife who loves you, awesome kiddos, friends who think you rock and a job that’s paying your mounting bills. You may not be impressed with your office manager title, but you’re very good at it. Most days, you keep things running smoothly, and that’s saying something for our office. Also, it’s non-profit work…it’s honorable, and it’s helping thousands of children like mine to have a better future. You really ARE making a difference, it just doesn’t feel like it when you get caught up in the day to day routine of things. And I think most of us feel “average.” I’m decent at a lot of things, but I don’t think I’m great at anything. Most of us struggle to pay our bills…especially in our stage of life….the 30’s & 40’s with young kiddos…that’s just how it is. Ok, next…hooray for birthdays and getting older! We get to put one more year of knowledge and learning from our mistakes to good use and have more time with the ones we love…yeah, how lucky are we!?!? Also, men typically get better looking and more distinguished as they get older…that’s just not fair! About your writing…just go for it. Make a couple rough outlines of all these ideas, so you don’t forget anything, then start filling in the holes. Don’t worry about it being perfect. Just start writing…you can “polish” and edit later. I still think you have a shot at being famous anyway. I swear you could be a comedy writer. One day when you submit a pilot that one of the major networks pick up, I want a cut for telling you so! Ok, I’m done lecturing you, my friend! I have to go fold some laundry…how average is that.?.? I’m a lucky girl though, I happen to love those bodies that keep piling up the dirty clothes on me!
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